went back to hwachong in the evening to return an overdue library art book, accompanied by a sum which could be jolly well saved for other things if my memory or stubborness didnt fail me.

stepping into school ground again makes me sad. simply because its once yours, and now you dont belong to it, any longer. you just feel foreign amidst the familiar settings of that corner of canteen, class bench, the track, the space outside library, even walking past the reading room feels weird.

saw the juniors training, the monday runs round the track, and its another surge of emotions i cant fully explain.

some things, are not meant to be hold on to, i guess. reliving what's behind is never possible. but such departure, only time can heal. and perhaps erase, without us knowing even.

--

sometimes the heart, be it yours or someone else's, is so beyond comprehension it leaves you feeling frustrated. maybe that's what heart is meant to be, as complicated as it can be. yes?

Labels: school, thoughts

the girl (:





we went ice-skating for the day, thanks to birthday girl who has an obsession with fullhouse. though we fell like clowns at times, going round and round the rink was bliss. followed by, lurkings at airport terminal 3, our lerk thai dinner and karen's roars to accompany us, yes? (:

its been 8 years since amethyst, but old school besties just have their way of filling up the hours with nothing else but joy.

remember M,
remember E
put them together,
and remember ME.

we used to write thousands of those poems on autograph books during those days. but i'm glad we didnt forget this particular one. haha.

take care <3

Labels: karen and jo

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted"

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on the rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle"

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

"A wrestling match" He laughs.
"Yes, you could describe life that way"

So which side wins, I ask.

"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins"

-Mitch Albom

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! though a little belated.

It's indeed weird not to have flowers, chocolates, sweets, little notes and all shades of pink strewn within a diameter of your eyes, unlike past years of valentine's days in schools had been.

Maybe it's been destined that my vday's not to fall on february the fourteenth too, not that he's confined in army, but i was confined sadly, at home. still wondering of why the likes for friday or saturday night, haha well, your command, and I know somehow that the wait's going to be worthwhile (:

I am so relieved Im well enough again to face the computer screen and not have that shivers of cold wrapping around me. Monthly fevers really get on my nerves, big time. So much that i detest the sight of the ever familiar pink paracetamol pills, pink cough syrup and whatever antibiotics i had to swallow to drive the discomfort away.

Sorry mel, i cant make it on water again today cos of the stupid fever ): but I am determined to be back at macritchie, at least 1st march.the juniors' picture at xinyi's blog seems to tell me that i just have to paddle and feel the waters once more, and that canoe's been left out of me a little far too long.

Anyway, talking to tiffany on the line tonight just made my day (:
thank you best friend.

Labels: canoe, thoughts, tiff

chinese new year this year, despite the long weekend it came with, seemed to pass way too quickly. so much fun in that short span of few days made the retreat to normal rountined life a little difficult. isn't it?

reunion potluck at grandma's place, classic (:
my girl cousins, seeing bernice's face makes me want to laugh out loud again
guy cousins and bro
the warmest complete family picture i can ever ask of (mummy's side)
and mine <3

the two men i grew up with (:and my brother, who's officially taller than me this year

pineapple tarts and multiple rounds of 'bridge' this year, hopping to each other's houses and loads of catching up. true enough, everyone has grown a little; taller, older, sweeter, or wiser perhaps.

but nothing beats the feeling of having the entire big family surrounding you once again.

Labels: family

i cant believe we were still munching on ben and jerry's ice cream before you went into the ferry! (: two and a half days before you're out again!

met up with karen and jo yest night at bedok foodcourt. soupy business oh and we could actually talk despite towering noise out there (: pro-ness. jo bought this "good girl gone bad-las vegas" magnet for me, haha. well, long overdue christmas gifts exchange and we finally planned something proper for next sunday!1 pm sharp, can't wait (:

for once i am not having monday blues! and its clinic day in the hospital tomorrow, which means lots of running about with exciting stuffs happening.

goodnight world!

sometimes, things just feel a little strange.
and i dont know why.

Labels: karen and jo, noob

hospital attachment at NUH today was really cool. it wasnt anywhere close to boring which some people had described their hospital attachments to be.

and guess what, my attachment partner is carolyn! i was so delighted to have someone from hwachong too and really looked forward to working together for the next one month! (:

thank you nicole and especially junhow for making my first day at work so memorable, saving me out of wits end at times! i actually wheeled this patient who had to have her cast removed to the wrong ward today and junhow almost fainted. i'ld rant more about the attachment next time i guess. but for one thing, i would get to go into the operation theatre and stand next to the surgeon while he operates every wednesday! ahh i cant wait (:

went out with des for threading which was damn painful and pepper lunch for dinner! and she's so happy to receive a cartonful of oranges today (:

and im seeing you in twelve hours' time.
im a HAPPY girl today!
(:

being small

31st january 2008 23:00 PM
(did not manage to publish this last night)

here's an entry, one with a pathetic preface and few discordant chapters.guess i'll just let the wordiness unfurl.

--

six days of traumatising bout of influenza. it just came with its peak 39.1 degree fever, hits of dizziness, rounds of vomitting, blood test due to dengue suspicions, and the worst was the erratic shower of shivers which were heaty on the outside but icy on the inside when the medicine worn off time and again.

and now i feel so blessed to declare that im finally well and healthy again! i've been foolish to have taken my health for granted, only to treasure it so badly only after such a war. im proud to have won this time, not alone, but with dearest mum who stuck with me through it all, dad who became ultra naggy, bro, and of course, the greatest doctor none other than God alone (: and to all those who have stood by me and prayed for me, thank you!

sorry claire and huiqi for missing that date of ours :/ will meet up real soon!

--

oh, nicholas surprised me last saturday (his very first official bookout) by ringing the doorbell and popping by in his army uniform! though i was so frail and weak with high fever for a moment i thought i was all well again just seeing him standing there. anyhow, i wont be able to forgive myself for falling ill at such a wrong timing, to miss that dinner and for not being able to spend time together the entire weekend despite being on the same island now, all because of a heartless influenza virus.

and just when I thought all I had was just that few hours with him before I could only see him again next saturday, I was totally wrong. He popped by again on tuesday afternoon before going for his physiotherapy. Or so, my lucky star was twinkling despite the rain pouring outside then.

--

well, finally went back to work on wednesday.and guess what i dropped my antibiotics while rushing for the shuttle bus! but it was such a blessing in disguise. you wonder why and i, too, marvel at the events that followed.

went back to doc's clinic at night to buy another set of antibiotics. on his way to the toilet, doc could actually recognise me as the girl whom he lent some medical books during my last visit (fever during christmas last yr)! he offered more opportunities, gave advice and even lent me one more book (: its amazing how God had answered my prayers and used events like my fevers or losing my antibiotics as keys in opening various doors for me.

its just, simply miraculous, maybe absurd. but it has definitely shot a jab of joy into me.

--

and my hospital attachment is supposed to start tomorrow instead of 4th february! my, it was such a short notice i had to rush and complete a heap of work for my aunt before i leave. val's working for my aunt now, and sorry for loading you with so much information in two hours yeah? glad to have met up with her after so long. guess we were so noisy in the shuttle bus that everyone around sleeping would hate us! and val apparently didnt realise that the traffic light man had turned green, blur queen (: thank you and jiayou with my aunt alright!

i am trying to imagine how things at NUH orthopaedics will be like tomorrow.i'd been awaiting it for so long, and it has finally arrived.

and thank you melody for such a precious opportunity (:

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TK SD Immanuel
katong convent primary
dunman high guides PB council
hwachong 06s75
SMU business
canoeist
dragonboater
christian
30 may

went back to hwachong in the evening to return an overdue library art book, accompanied by a sum which could be jolly well saved for other things if my memory or stubborness didnt fail me.

stepping into school ground again makes me sad. simply because its once yours, and now you dont belong to it, any longer. you just feel foreign amidst the familiar settings of that corner of canteen, class bench, the track, the space outside library, even walking past the reading room feels weird.

saw the juniors training, the monday runs round the track, and its another surge of emotions i cant fully explain.

some things, are not meant to be hold on to, i guess. reliving what's behind is never possible. but such departure, only time can heal. and perhaps erase, without us knowing even.

--

sometimes the heart, be it yours or someone else's, is so beyond comprehension it leaves you feeling frustrated. maybe that's what heart is meant to be, as complicated as it can be. yes?

Labels: school, thoughts

the girl (:





we went ice-skating for the day, thanks to birthday girl who has an obsession with fullhouse. though we fell like clowns at times, going round and round the rink was bliss. followed by, lurkings at airport terminal 3, our lerk thai dinner and karen's roars to accompany us, yes? (:

its been 8 years since amethyst, but old school besties just have their way of filling up the hours with nothing else but joy.

remember M,
remember E
put them together,
and remember ME.

we used to write thousands of those poems on autograph books during those days. but i'm glad we didnt forget this particular one. haha.

take care <3

Labels: karen and jo

"Have I told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.

The tension of opposites?

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted"

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on the rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle"

Sounds like a wrestling match, I say.

"A wrestling match" He laughs.
"Yes, you could describe life that way"

So which side wins, I ask.

"Which side wins?"
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins"

-Mitch Albom

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! though a little belated.

It's indeed weird not to have flowers, chocolates, sweets, little notes and all shades of pink strewn within a diameter of your eyes, unlike past years of valentine's days in schools had been.

Maybe it's been destined that my vday's not to fall on february the fourteenth too, not that he's confined in army, but i was confined sadly, at home. still wondering of why the likes for friday or saturday night, haha well, your command, and I know somehow that the wait's going to be worthwhile (:

I am so relieved Im well enough again to face the computer screen and not have that shivers of cold wrapping around me. Monthly fevers really get on my nerves, big time. So much that i detest the sight of the ever familiar pink paracetamol pills, pink cough syrup and whatever antibiotics i had to swallow to drive the discomfort away.

Sorry mel, i cant make it on water again today cos of the stupid fever ): but I am determined to be back at macritchie, at least 1st march.the juniors' picture at xinyi's blog seems to tell me that i just have to paddle and feel the waters once more, and that canoe's been left out of me a little far too long.

Anyway, talking to tiffany on the line tonight just made my day (:
thank you best friend.

Labels: canoe, thoughts, tiff

chinese new year this year, despite the long weekend it came with, seemed to pass way too quickly. so much fun in that short span of few days made the retreat to normal rountined life a little difficult. isn't it?

reunion potluck at grandma's place, classic (:
my girl cousins, seeing bernice's face makes me want to laugh out loud again
guy cousins and bro
the warmest complete family picture i can ever ask of (mummy's side)
and mine <3

the two men i grew up with (:and my brother, who's officially taller than me this year

pineapple tarts and multiple rounds of 'bridge' this year, hopping to each other's houses and loads of catching up. true enough, everyone has grown a little; taller, older, sweeter, or wiser perhaps.

but nothing beats the feeling of having the entire big family surrounding you once again.

Labels: family

i cant believe we were still munching on ben and jerry's ice cream before you went into the ferry! (: two and a half days before you're out again!

met up with karen and jo yest night at bedok foodcourt. soupy business oh and we could actually talk despite towering noise out there (: pro-ness. jo bought this "good girl gone bad-las vegas" magnet for me, haha. well, long overdue christmas gifts exchange and we finally planned something proper for next sunday!1 pm sharp, can't wait (:

for once i am not having monday blues! and its clinic day in the hospital tomorrow, which means lots of running about with exciting stuffs happening.

goodnight world!

sometimes, things just feel a little strange.
and i dont know why.

Labels: karen and jo, noob

hospital attachment at NUH today was really cool. it wasnt anywhere close to boring which some people had described their hospital attachments to be.

and guess what, my attachment partner is carolyn! i was so delighted to have someone from hwachong too and really looked forward to working together for the next one month! (:

thank you nicole and especially junhow for making my first day at work so memorable, saving me out of wits end at times! i actually wheeled this patient who had to have her cast removed to the wrong ward today and junhow almost fainted. i'ld rant more about the attachment next time i guess. but for one thing, i would get to go into the operation theatre and stand next to the surgeon while he operates every wednesday! ahh i cant wait (:

went out with des for threading which was damn painful and pepper lunch for dinner! and she's so happy to receive a cartonful of oranges today (:

and im seeing you in twelve hours' time.
im a HAPPY girl today!
(:

being small

31st january 2008 23:00 PM
(did not manage to publish this last night)

here's an entry, one with a pathetic preface and few discordant chapters.guess i'll just let the wordiness unfurl.

--

six days of traumatising bout of influenza. it just came with its peak 39.1 degree fever, hits of dizziness, rounds of vomitting, blood test due to dengue suspicions, and the worst was the erratic shower of shivers which were heaty on the outside but icy on the inside when the medicine worn off time and again.

and now i feel so blessed to declare that im finally well and healthy again! i've been foolish to have taken my health for granted, only to treasure it so badly only after such a war. im proud to have won this time, not alone, but with dearest mum who stuck with me through it all, dad who became ultra naggy, bro, and of course, the greatest doctor none other than God alone (: and to all those who have stood by me and prayed for me, thank you!

sorry claire and huiqi for missing that date of ours :/ will meet up real soon!

--

oh, nicholas surprised me last saturday (his very first official bookout) by ringing the doorbell and popping by in his army uniform! though i was so frail and weak with high fever for a moment i thought i was all well again just seeing him standing there. anyhow, i wont be able to forgive myself for falling ill at such a wrong timing, to miss that dinner and for not being able to spend time together the entire weekend despite being on the same island now, all because of a heartless influenza virus.

and just when I thought all I had was just that few hours with him before I could only see him again next saturday, I was totally wrong. He popped by again on tuesday afternoon before going for his physiotherapy. Or so, my lucky star was twinkling despite the rain pouring outside then.

--

well, finally went back to work on wednesday.and guess what i dropped my antibiotics while rushing for the shuttle bus! but it was such a blessing in disguise. you wonder why and i, too, marvel at the events that followed.

went back to doc's clinic at night to buy another set of antibiotics. on his way to the toilet, doc could actually recognise me as the girl whom he lent some medical books during my last visit (fever during christmas last yr)! he offered more opportunities, gave advice and even lent me one more book (: its amazing how God had answered my prayers and used events like my fevers or losing my antibiotics as keys in opening various doors for me.

its just, simply miraculous, maybe absurd. but it has definitely shot a jab of joy into me.

--

and my hospital attachment is supposed to start tomorrow instead of 4th february! my, it was such a short notice i had to rush and complete a heap of work for my aunt before i leave. val's working for my aunt now, and sorry for loading you with so much information in two hours yeah? glad to have met up with her after so long. guess we were so noisy in the shuttle bus that everyone around sleeping would hate us! and val apparently didnt realise that the traffic light man had turned green, blur queen (: thank you and jiayou with my aunt alright!

i am trying to imagine how things at NUH orthopaedics will be like tomorrow.i'd been awaiting it for so long, and it has finally arrived.

and thank you melody for such a precious opportunity (: